Monday, March 15, 2010

Gallbladders and other needless things ....

So on Wed, St. Patrick's day, I have to get my gallbladder taken out. It is one of those organs with a purpose but not a necessary purpose. The doctor said I can live to a ripe old age of 100 without a gallbladder. It's a funny thing knowing a piece of you will be gone. Of course I don't think about my gallbladder everyday or really have I ever thought about it but it's mine. Anyways starting Wed. a part of my body will be gone :) I think I can manage.


Anyways, I am watching Julia and Julia to keep my mind off such things. I think that is why I am blogging right now. :) Anyways pretty good so far. By the way I am going to wear my St. Patrick's day stuff tomorrow so I can wear my outfit for the year I will miss St. Patrick's day. I will have to wait til next year. :)

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

I should be working....

Hello All,

So it has appeared to be a bit of time since my last post. I really should be working but I feel like I have been working no stop since Jan. 4th when I returned from vacation. In all this work, maybe its just my grass is greener on the other side attitude, but I want to have a job that I want to be at. Don't get me wrong I love HPS and all of its quirks but I have started to wonder if accounting is my dream or just what I did to make money. In the past few months I have really thought about money and how my ambitions have changed. I know that you need to have money to live and that I want to have a decent amount of money to help people and live comfortably. I know that this role will soon be turned over to Stephen, in three half years, and that he has similar ideas to me. I one time wanted to be the CEO of a fortune 500 company, then I realized what is the fun in being at work 24/7 (on call), travelling around not enjoying the sites, and all in all not being anything but work. That is what it takes to be a CEO and that isn't what I want. I want a family, friends, travel to remain fun, and excitiment on the weekends.

I guess all in all work is not my life. God is to be my life and God has a job for me that will fullfill my purpose. I still want to be comfortable though. I want a three or four bedroom house with a nice yard and a fence (vital to a dog) with a nice car every 5-10 years for Stephen and I (either a Venza, or C30, or another volvo station wagon). I want to be able to take vacations with our children around the country and world. I also want to be able to send my kids to college and have savings for retirement. Oh and the biggest thing is that I want to be able to stay home, maybe making minimal income as a side CPA (can't waste all that work :)).

On the stay at home Mom thing... I have always been the girl that said I will work and have a house husband take care of kids. In the past year I have really developped and found that turns the world upside down. Granted I know this will be construde as crazy by some women, but to be the provider in the family makes things weird. Stephen and I have discussed it alot, and having the woman as the bread winner just feels weird. It feels out of sorts and can the point of contention.

On to other things, I was taking this diet pill for a few weeks and it made me feel terribly angry. I just wanted to be alone the rest of my life. I stopped taking it due to lack of sleep, anger, and other weird symptons and I felt tons better. Unfortunately I started gaining weight in giant intervals. So I started WW again last Wed. I have a weigh in tomorrow evening. I hope I do good. I think I will lose some weight. I decided though that I am going to do this til the goal weight and be in my cute shorts again by the summer. I did it once I damn well can do it again, with God's help, self control, families help, and real motivation.


Well I better get back to work.... I know My Mom will read this and find I wasn't working and tell my boss :)

Friday, December 4, 2009

Woes and Joys of the ever changing life :)

So the past few weeks have been an intense group of weeks. It all started when I sat for my second part of the CPA that never makes for a good month. In fact it is a month of terror as you check to see if your score is posted every day sometimes twice a day to see if you can add that next letter. The month trucked on after that soon enough Thanksgiving was here. Stephen and I had a an awesome time at our church Thanksgiving... I had actually come to the conclusion that church was stupid and that I would only go because in all honesty Stephen was making me with his sad puppy dog eyes every Sunday morning. Then we visited Awaken... I thought we would have another crazy church... then some one talked to us, the music was great, the service was awesome and it had the perfect mix of traditional biblical values and contemporary atmosphere. It is perfect for Stephen and I. So we kept going then we started small groups and the rest so far is history. I love going to our church and think it has a created a need for church in my life. Continuing from that tangent.....

Church Thanksgiving was great I found out that Stephen has done everything and I hadn't done a lot in a riveting game of "I've never". We just talked and had fun :) Then my Thanksgiving with my parents was next. Oh how I love my family. They are my support throughout life. They really bring me a great joy and we always have fun. Mom was sick this year so Dad and Becca went grocery shopping and we all cooked a little bit together. It was pretty awesome to hear the stories of Dad and/or Mom breaking the gas stove, Mitzi running around under legs and needing to be walked. Then we got their tree up after Dad and I told Stephen he was wrong (when we found out later he was actually very right) and went home.

The next morning wasn't so great as I woke up to clean and get started on the basement work I had several missed calls and a text from Becca, " We are following Dad to the hospital call". This immediately freaked me out. My Dad had a heart attack on Dec. 8th, 1998 and the feelings of fear and sadness reached me again. He has lost blood pressure (like his previous heart attack) and was in the ambulance. So Stephen rushed us to the hospital and we waited and waited.

Finally we got to see him, drained of all color and angry he was in the hospital. But I got to see him. He stayed in the hospital for a two days. I spent the whole day on Sat until they released him. I was even doing wii fit yoga by the end of the day because it was so boring :) But my Dad got to leave... he wasn't better but he was going home. So he has been doing better better but he might have to get surgery... will find out next week. Anyways the emotional drain of this situation really caused me to be angry at Stephen(easiest target). Thankfully I have been getting over that too :)!!!

So now I am at work blogging about life instead of working and waiting for this cold Friday work day to come to an end so Stephen and I can have fun together. I truly found the love of my life and my soul mate and I know God put us together. I know life will continue to be really hard and I know I have to give it all to God(harder then ever imagined) but there is so much good that exists and so much good that can really come out of bad situations. :)